Sha's Thought #1

"Don't take things that you have for granted,"

Today is almost 4 months I've been here in the university. In fact, I'm quite surprise that I still managed to survive here which I'm always sad and crying over and over. Yes, I do have new friends. Managed to make friends even I'm quite introvert person but not when I'm with my close friends. Well, I still got 2 years more for me to stay strong with surrounding here. Actually, before this when I was 16 or 17 years old, I start doing this blog but not it had been awhile and yeah I'm here to blubbering(?) about things here, what happen in my life. Hahahaha. It just my thought. 

Last time, I cried. I don't know how many times I've been crying now but yesterday I'm crying. Well, it's quite hard to live here. Quite but not really. Then, yesterday my dad pick me up to send me to take my new I/C and then we spent time together to buy me new laptop. While I'm with him in the car, I managed having good talks with him. When I talk to him, I stare at him for awhile. From his eyes, I could see that he's having hard time. I urged myself not cry in front of him. (Like now I urge myself not to cry because my roommate is beside me.) 

For sudden, my lips slipped asking him, "Hey dad, are you okay? Have you have lunch already?" I asked in concern because I'm worried about him and he give me answer which make my heart shattered. He said, "Fries is enough for me," 

Bitch, who doesn't cry if your dad didn't get enough food to eat yet he's gotta work. Once, i get my I/C done, we both go to mall, surveying laptops for me but before we decide, we went eat together. When we order food, I saw his wallet got certain amount of money but in my mind think how many days he will get use that money. From that I start to think also, 

'Is this what they feel when your parents worried about you? How you doing? Did you eat well?'

So, from there also make me that the hardship that they did for is really something that we can't describe. The hardship that they managed to make you laugh, make you smile, make your day better. How I wish I'm rich enough to give them what they want, what they need. It's enough and satisfy me when they are all happy. 

I cried a lot when thinking about this over and over. I've talked about this to my soulmate, which is known as my best friend where she's also too far for me to cry with her. Lucky I got best friend like her who still have time for me. Actually, we both have hard time together in university life but we are all slowly to adapted the surrounding.

Hmm, how I wish I get the same university as her. So, that's all for today. See you on the next SHA'S THOUGHT.

Bye.